Who and What am I???

Pensions from past,
are tensions of present.
Uncertainty of future,
haunts my sense.


Lowly is the crowd,
and lower is the cater.
Am I a Demon resurrection,
or seriously a God's incarnation.


Why I feel so hard to kneel,
my passions hold alleviated appeal.
Am I a fiction,
a fragment of someone's creation.


Hard it is to live,
with so many answers to give.
Yet i strive,
speeding my drive.


May the world be in mayhem,
may dragons attack and cram.


Let the worst of the worst,
fall on this wretched earth.
For i don't know, I am who?
& for that whom do I sue.

Scouting for Van Helsing!!!

Blood, Tears and Blades,
heavy hilts studded with Jades.
Bodies lying on floor,
Red splashed, walls and doors.


Beyond the room, a starry night.
Stone gargoyles soaring in sight.
Brutal howls and frightened shreaks,
Walking below a long black drape wearing freak.


Sword in hand,
he gave an undistinguished command.
All gargoyles disappeared in night,
and what I saw now, was a sheer fright.


Hundreds of Bats devouring few humans,
Blood splattered, floor burns.
Red over gray was the pattern,
High rise, stone mounted sat Satan.


Slow moving figure in black drape,
with contoured eerie shape.
Chill crept down my spine,
and fear gripped the emotional shrine.


Stooping low figure kissed a naked girl,
and a muffled scream escaped her.
Then was when lightning shone again,
and I glimpsed the face of terror's reign.


White as a chalk was the skin,
with elongated canines, guilty of cannibalistic sin.
Scared I was like an empty shell,
maybe I was viewing inside the window of Hell.


All hair erect to the end,
Shivering and quivering, that I couldn't fend.
Somehow I managed to utter,

"Mr. Helsing; count is here."

I do!!!

Another try at the song writing thing[:d]
Oh this ones simple… just an idiot yapping for a lost girl friend..

Singing the song I wrote,
Years ago…
I know…
For you o’ my baby…
You know I am crazy..

For I still somehow hope….
You might come to know..
That I still miss you.
Still I can smell you..
Every night I do feel you..
Oh yes… I do..
I dooooo…


You were the only one
That I ever loved
Ever cared…
You were the one for me and I for you…
I am still… just for you..

For you I did everything…
Killed myself, wasted my wings..
I left the skies
To walk this barren bumpy earth…
Just for you….
Only youuuuu…..

You were a passion and my delight..
With you I got all pleasures of my flight…

My life was only you…
My heart beated only for you…
And it still do….
It still dooooo…..

Craving for more of you,
You and only you…
I sit here watching the sea….
End of world where sky meets the sea.
I remember the days we spent…
And the love I had for you…
I still love you..
I still dooo…..

But you were never mine…
You were not meant for me…
Beer mugs are not supposed hold the finest wine…
And an aquarium can never show the oysters real shine….

And sooo……..

You went away…
Went far away….

From me….

But you know it too….
My life depends on you…
It always did..
And it still do…..

It still do……….

Now that you are gone…
Nowhere to be found…
I search for the ways…
Some means to tell you…
How much I missed you…
How much I miss you..
How much I still miss you…

I still do…….
I still dooooooooo…..

I miss you… [;)]

I miss you!!

My first attempt at writing song…

I know I suck…

Please bear along,

You can always comment, “what the fuck?”

Lolzzzzzzz

errr... i cant describe the tone i was singing it in..... why not u try ur own tones and tell me according to u which suits the best[:p]

This is a song about a heart broken majnu.. whose laila dies and now this idiot commits suicide by jumping from a tall building while singing this..[:p]

Come home,

Come to me…

I miss you,

Life sucks without you…. -2

O Oaaooo…….

Pathetic I feel,

Trapped in this fate’s rotating wheel.

Come on…

O’ come back you,

Good times,

I want you to,

Come back to me,

Come back …

Come to home,

Come to me…

For I miss you…-2

Sorrows of this life,

I wonder….

Why am I still alive?

Without you life seems so miserable,

Pathetic and incorrigible.

Death is but more than welcome,

I shall seek you in heaven.

And then, I shall come to you.

O’ honey I miss you

O’ baby I miss you…

Just want to let you know,

All hopes and dreams died long ago.

It was the day I saw you go…

It was the day…. They took youuuuuu.

But why did you have to go?

Why did you just go??

Was I nothing to you?

Didn’t you love me too?

I just want to know…

So, comon’ O’ you,

Come back…

Come to home…

I miss you… -2

Come back to answer..

What all is unanswered,

And the things I seek to know.. -2

I am still down here,

Waiting for you in here.

Tears are draining…

My heart crying….

Becoz, I miss you…

O’ my love… I miss you..

Without you I am so lonely,

Eyes have dried maybe,

But heart is bleeding,

My heart…. Its still bleeding.

Dunno, why its still beating…

What purpose is remaining?

Why am I still alive?

When you are gone…

So far away….

That I cant reach you,

I cant again see you,

Sitting in a corner….

I cant just watch you..

You were everything that I wanted,

Only thing I demanded…

And the only one I needed.

Please come back,

Come to home…

For I miss you

Cant you see how much

I miss you…

Cant you feel the pain…

I have for you…

You are up above,

They say as a star you watch over me….

Over me???

Do you watch over me???

Maybe you cant see me,

You are so high above.

But I shall come to you,

If you don’t…

Come back..

Come home…

Come to meeeee….

For I miss you -2

Now I climbed all this.

For you to spot me…

See, I am here,

Waiting…

Longing…

Craving…

For you.. just for youuuuu.

O’ please just come back..

I miss you

Come home..

Come back, I miss you…

Come to meeee -2

With open arms I shall walk to…

You…

I miss you…

You didn’t come….

So, I come to you….

Leaving all the bonds behind,

Attractions and pleasures of this world fine…

I come to you….

For I miss you… -2

I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu….

~~~~Pause~~~

Here, I come back…

I have come to home…

Come to you…

Darling, I missed you….

O my love… I love you…

I Love youuuuuuu..............

R.C.'s Mistake!!!

Ages ago lived a knight,

Marked for bravery he knew no fright.

King and all the country men,

Sang songs of his valor same.

Daemons, dragons and evil what not,

He fought and defeated the lot.

Day by day rose his glory and fame,

Adjacent kingdoms were envy of his name.

Harry, the knight and the prince,

Brave, handsome and a charming face with a wince.

That’s his portrait in the book of archery,

Most loved text-book owned by Princess Sally.

Their love was unspoken,

Prince adored beautiful Sally but impossible was communication.

Rivalry between the 2 kingdoms,

Make this story a further boredom.

Knight kept princess in his heart,

Yet, married some girl; with a wart.

Princess still holds knights portrait,

Breast feeding an ugly baby and cursing fate.

What went wrong?

Why was this; their fate??

Was it almighty’s wish???

Whom can be blamed????

I try to blame the prince and the princess,

Bu thinking again, I get its some one else.

It’s Ambani’s mistake,

Reliance communications came late. [:d]

Me and Life!!!

hmmm... just a thought that crossed my mind... and while thinking and pondering i was scribbling on paper........ and this is what came out[:p]

I am no good,
as useful as rotten wood.
People hate me to the core,
acknowledgment of which turns me sore.

Pathetic i feel,
racking my brain in zeal.
Just to find a way,
to get approved in anyway.

Simple are the methods,
yet i fear the efforts.
Forget yourself, your opinions,
first way, suggests to live like minions.

Thank god, trust in his word,
second way, that actually fucked this world.
Study more get good grades,
third way that ain't of any aid.

Get a job, work like slave,
fourth way, failed on realization of being enslaved.
Now i have no way,
do not know what to say.

My life seems so stuck,
Anchored fast in a pool of muck.
Darkness all over me, I can see,
Eyes wide open i search for anything heavenly.

A shard of light,
or a faint glint.
But pitch black darkness,
swallows the inner calm and peace.

Restless i feel,
overwhelmed by amount of time to kill.
Settle is not the word for me,
Stopping for anyone or anything is not my key.

Keep moving is what i do,
only to return where from i started to.
Clueless, trackless, direction-less, that is me,
i search a path to be free.

I see now that i am trapped in a maze,
the game of life, does amaze.
Nobody gave me the correct compass,
but as a looser i would never board the doomsday bus.

Sometime, someway I'll find a way,
to mark my presence in the world we stay.
Someday all odds i shall defy,
win with the charm, that none can deny.

Traveler.......

In the line of fire,

He’s trapped by hearts desire.

At the veil of knowledge,

He hangs in middle on a ledge.

Get past the line of fire or over the veil,

Is all that he can think and feel.

To discover the undiscovered,

To explore the kingdoms unconquered.

To change the common mindset,

He needs to accomplish his quest.

He needs to do the undone,

Scale the heights to the sun.

He looks tired and ragged,

Yet he is young and misfit for adventures ahead.

The world beyond the line maybe hostile,

Beyond the veil either, he can’t expect any pedophile.

Yet he wants to do it,

Risk everything and give a try to it.

He knows he may fail,

Chances of winning are bare minimal.

But he thinks of treasures,

Of glory, and thereafter the pleasures.

He thinks of world with him as a famous,

And all the doubts of loosing just vanished.

Wondering what maybe ahead,

He takes a step forward.

“Fool…… why did you do it???.......”

“Please… open your eyes……please live….”

The cries of people of this world,

Cursing and caring, got his lips curled.

A smile and fresh determination swept through,

And he lurched into the world un-true.

Where did he go??

When will he return??

Did he find the place better??

I, with this, just wish he finds all the pleasure.